The house stood before her, rotting and silent, and she wondered, I cannot go there. The sign says so. The church said so too. The world said so.
But as those voices dimmed into distant static, as tears dried against her skin and her torn clothing clung to her like old grief, she walked forward anyway.
She passed the DO NOT ENTER sign that others obeyed like scripture, fixed to the earth like cement, and with one finger she flicked it aside. It toppled effortlessly, the way tornadoes erase entire cities without apology.
She was that storm.
She was that velocity.
She entered the house, brushing cobwebs from her face, dust rising around her like ghosts finally disturbed. Ahead of her stood a staircase hidden beneath a massive wooden door with a tarnished brass handle. She pulled at it and it would not move. She screamed. She cried. The weight of everything done to her pressed into her bones.
Still, she opened it.
Just enough to slip through.
Another doorway. Another room.
Debauchery. Laughter too loud to be genuine. People singing only to drown out the loneliness clawing at their ribs. Parties thrown like barricades against tomorrow. Men and women distracting themselves together so they would not have to face themselves alone.
And she, the loner she had always been, kept walking.
She passed the rooms of the rich, glittering with excess. She passed the rooms of the poor, hollowed by hunger. She passed the rooms of the disgusted, the bitter, the ashamed, the hollow-eyed.
And still she kept going.
Each stairway fought her. Each door demanded something from her: blood, breath, memory, rage. But over time the struggle changed. What once required screaming eventually required only a whisper. Then only a glance.
She spoke, and the doors opened.
Easily. Effortlessly.
Like the tornadoes she once watched on television, swallowing cities whole and turning structures into dust. Destroying lives. Rearranging worlds.
And when she finally reached the bottom cellar, exhausted yet unbroken, her vision sharpened into something almost divine. Through the darkness, through the suffocating weight of all she had survived, she lifted one finger and spoke:
“I am now one with everything.
I make the bottom the top.
I make the floor the ceiling.
I make the room everything, and everything the room.”
And the cellar trembled as if reality itself had heard her.
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